Moving Forward...

Things have been quiet here as we've been processing our grief, but life keeps moving on....the boys still need their mommy--apparently just because mommy is sad doesn't change the fact that the house still needs cleaning and the children need to eat and play and bathe.......

Along with our pain we have also had so many blessings raining down on us.  The timing of our loss was really perfect--if such a thing can have perfect timing--Chris had the entire week off for spring break so he was able to stay home every day and take care of me and the children.  We've had prayers and lasagnas flowing to us without an end in sight, both of which seem to have overwhelming healing powers.  Shortly after we lost our little Katharine the weather miraculously turned beautiful.  This was extremely irritating at first--didn't the world know I was grieving?  Rain seemed a more appropriate choice for weather.  God knew better though....I know, that's a huge surprise isn't it?......The wonderful weather has allowed us to get outside and has done wonders to lift my mood.  You can't help but smile when Spring begins to bloom all around you.  

This first week at home without Chris I've been able to take the boys outside every day and go on ridiculously long walks.  On one such walk we landed at this usually quiet park..... 

Only on this day it wasn't quite so quiet and of course the boys wanted to sit themselves directly in front of this chain-sawing monstrosity......so much for time for quiet reflection.....

They spent a lot of time burying my feet with their "diggers".....

So many thoughtful gifts have arrived on my doorstep this week; flowers, books, and this wonderful bracelet from my sister-in-laws.....

For the most part I've been doing well--spending time with my boys whose laughter is such a blessing, reading, and soaking up this wonderful sunshine.  I know this loss will always be with me, but I can feel myself being strengthened by it already and I know that we will all be okay.....

Thank you all for your continued prayers, I am sure that I can feel them and they have helped to bring us such comfort and peace.